Sunday, October 28, 2007

Little green apples and I


Many, many years ago Mother Anne came to visit me in Sweden. She brought me a music box. This afternoon, I wound it up and played it, watching the two children atop the box as they rose and fell and rose again on a seasaw, to the tune of...? I remembered that the song had something to do with apples and Indianapolis - because Mother Anne had hummed the refrain for me - but I had no idea what the song was actually about. I found the lyrics today:

And I wake up in the mornin'
With my hair down in my eyes and she says "Hi" 
And I stumble to the breakfast table 
While the kids are goin' off to schoolgoodbye 
And she reaches out 'n' takes my hand 
And squeezes it 'n' says "How ya feelin', hon?" 
And I look across at smilin' lips 
That warm my heart and see my mornin' sun 

And if that's not lovin' me 
Then all I've got to say 
God didn't make little green apples 
And it don't rain in Indianapolis in the summertime 
And there's no such thing as Doctor Seuss 
Or Disneyland, and Mother Goose, no nursery rhyme 
God didn't make little green apples 
And it don't rain in Indianapolis in the summertime 
And when my self is feelin' low 
I think about her face aglow and ease my mind 

Sometimes I call her up at home knowin' she's busy 
And ask her if she could get away and meet me 
And maybe we could grab a bite to eat 
And she drops what she's doin' and she hurries down to meet me 
And I'm always late 
But she sits waitin' patiently and smiles when she first sees me 
'cause she's made that way 

And if that ain't lovin' me 
Then all I've got to say 
God didn't make little green apples 
And it don't snow in Minneapolis when the winter comes 
And there's no such thing as make-believe 
Puppy dogs, autumn leaves 'n' BB guns 

FADE 

God didn't make little green apples 
And it don't rain in Indianapolis


Lyrics by Bobby Russell.
Recorded by Roger Miller (1968).

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

(OM) frames of reference revisited

Dear Mago,
Not that I have managed to get to the bottom of what you wrote in your diary in 1942, or learned everything I’d like to know about your perspective, but now I am convinced that you are wherever I am, working from the other side. Why else would you choose to abandon your diary after less than six months? You (and I) are faithful as the dog, man’s best friend, who doesn’t go anywhere without his/her mistress/master. You are love when I was blind, and now I see you.

You are an extraordinary source of reference. Like a dictionary, I can open onto, always there by my desk to help me to understand and remember what eludes me. Like a home, a familiar place to which I can return, feel my way around, a constant base of orientation. You are like a platform I can jump on or off. A diary I am free to open and close. You are like the limits of time, a phase of life with which I can relate to other times, and my own life and death.

your loving granddaughter

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Translations

Dear Mago,
Just want you to know that I’m thinking about you and mother Anne this evening. After a full day of translation work (on classical and jazz musical performances) and an evening of avante-garde film screenings at the Museum of Modern Art in Stockholm, I am too exhausted to say much. Let it be known that I was privileged to read for the first time this evening the published translation of an essay which I wrote last year (for Moma in NY and other American audiences), along with reworked and translated texts that I had previously edited in English on the films of Gunvor Nelson. The ability to preserve or subordinate oneself to what is different and foreign (without falling for the temptation to translate?), is needlesstosay an interesting process.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

"Om" our frames of reference

Dear Mago,
Perhaps you are wondering what I’ve been writing about lately? ...to be con't.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Walkin' down the Freedom Trail?

A political editor for one of Sweden’s largest dailies (Svenska Dagbladet 27/9) has recently encouraged the liberal conservative alliance to leave the worn Work Path and take the adventurous Freedom Trail instead. The parole Arbeit Macht Frei is stigmatized. Everyone can see all too well how self-sacrifice – working ourselves to death – promises to set our souls free, but affords a meager vision. Our parents may have approved of it in one way, Hitler may have promoted it in another, we may have followed it in still another way, but what way are our children to take?

Freedom is as exciting as the gift of life itself. Unfortunately, a sense of individual freedom, save personal responsibility, has managed to erode the Swedish welfare model. Plenty of sirens appear luringly on the horizon. Not all are real, but some are real warning signals. Who wants to be fooled by some slipshod utopia.

For those of us who are young and healthy and just beginning our careers, the lure of sweet singing is particularly great. Bob Dylan's "Forever young" is enough. We can hope that we will eventually grow wise enough to bear witness to the fruits of our choices. In the meantime, we must live to the fullest, prepared - to the extent that the rules of the game are changing, and our tax burden lightens - to pay the price for health and welfare, education, etc. Let us not be tempted (like many of our Swedish parents were, in the name of tax deductions) to consume everything we lay our hands upon in the name of freedom, without considering the longterm consequences.

For those of us who are unhealthy, or otherwise handicapped, the Freedom Trail is pure myth. We have never been politically correct. Think of the hoards of Scandinavian immigrants who were drawn to the Promised Land, and how they were forced to undergo medical and legal inspection before they were allowed to enter. Those who didn't pass the test were turned back.

For those of us who are retired or close to retirement, having spent the better part of our lives working hard in the service of Swedish welfare, the choices appear suddenly to have become very limited. Whether or not this is true, remains to be seen. While we may have had little use ourselves for the welfare benefits for which we have paid a very high price to date – we are likely to need some now, or soon. And so we have no choice but to invoke the terms of our original contract. Having shouldered the highest tax burden in the world for decades to this end, we demand the healthcare and retirement benefits for which we have paid and been promised.

The hair comb has long been a metaphor for European social democracy (as well as socialism). Today there is still an implicit grief over her toothlessness, straggly hair and sagging breasts. The comb has become a useless tool atop her European vanity. Once indispensable in the fight against parasites, today's comb has largely been replaced by drugs. Furthermore, globalization has brought us to appreciate combless coifs, such as dreadlocks, cornrows, and other natural hairstyles that were still exotic wafts in the hey-day of social democracy. Today, in the wake of Stalin and Hitler, we are forced to question the values upon which social democracy was based. How viable is a utopia that envisions and treats human beings like equal strands of hair that sometimes need to be straightened out, freed from snarls, tangles, and rid of parasites?

Whatever happened to the value of human capital in Europe, to the value of energy and involvement, education, experience, and wisdom? When did the human being become a burden, as opposed to an asset, in European societies? We grieve the toothlessness of our old combs (overused, abused, overheated, useless because they've run up against so much resistance) because needless-to-say - many dangers, toils and snares await along the alternative “Freedom trail”.
When the comb has lost its efficacy, the questions remain: what are the choices, whose, why, what, how much, and for how long?

Monday, October 1, 2007

Cosmos

“When I saw that jungle on a high corner balcony, I could tell that it was your place.”
my youngest brother on a recent visit to Stockholm

Eight purple petals
round the sun rise
from a feathery green boa.
Some soggy lips still stick
together after a rainy night.
Candy stripes, Psycho whites
and Glorias, all sown in the same pot,
just weeks before mother died,
are blooming now.

Better a negative transaction than none at all, huh? And so yesterday, a balmy Sunday morn, I broke off one long stem of my favorite species, and inserted it into a crystal vase (blown especially for cut roses). New buds have opened on the cut and if this Indian summer continues, many more are likely to blossom on the balcony too – like Seashells and Day Dreams. And what next year? Note that, unlike the Rose, none of the members of this family were ever christened, much less nicknamed ‘Queen’. There's a reason, but what do they know?